"I've been thinking about your journal some more, Star. What struck me the most is the reflection in your words of the horror, the shock, the attempt to deal intellectually with this, the emotion, the grief, and finally the determined resolution.

"No matter our differences politically, religiously, racially, or personally, I think your journal reflects the thoughts and feelings of all of us as a single unified people.

"(p.s. I felt like a peeping susie reading it, tho.)"

I guess I've struck a nerve in a most unintended way. I've been writing this for a little over a week now .... Well, today is the tenth way. Who knew I'd keep going at it?

I've kept journals and diarys before. I'll get a hair or something *grin* .... and I'll get a notebook, and I'll write down whatever is on my mind that day, and then I'll forget about it for another 6 months or year or however long, and then maybe I'll get a hair again, and write down whatever, and then forget about it again .... over and over and over again. This is the first time that I've kept with something, and it's very unusual for me. I'm not someone who talks about myself with strangers, or even with people that I know. I just never have talked about things that were bothering me. It's always been so much easier to keep it all bottled up, than to talk about things. I've learned to talk on multiple levels. It's very rare for me to say something and have it mean only one thing. It's part of who I've become over the years. This may be a way of changing that. Or it may be a way of reinforcing that. I don't know.

But I've kept up with it this far, and I show no signs of slowing down. Now, granted, I won't be able to post things on Mondays and Tuesdays, until I get the net hooked up in the new place, but the other days, not a problem.

Oddly enough, it seems that this journal is becoming somewhat popular. This is a strange feeling for me. I've already had over 100 *different* people view it. Geocities doesn't tell me who the viewers are, but it's set up to tell me how many different ip's have visited, and there are over a hundred, and of those, most have come back repeatedly. Thursday and Friday seem to be the highest view-days so far, but like I said, it's only been ten days so far.

"It changed the future, and it changed us. It taught us that we have to create the future, or others will do it for us. It showed us that we have to care for one another, because if we don’t, who will? And that true strength sometimes comes from the most unlikely places. Mostly though, I think it gave us hope that there can always be new beginnings, even for people like us." -Entil'Zha Susan Ivanova, Babylon 5

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